Damaged-Ness

Trusting someone is a big deal. When the trust is broken, even for something small, there isn’t ever a real guarantee that you will get it back. I’m struggling right now. Like, in a way that I haven’t struggled in a long time. There’s that saying “if you crumble up a piece of paper, it’s … More Damaged-Ness

Round and Round

I have moments where I feel like a fraud. I feel like my whole life is just fake. Moments where I feel like my happiness isn’t real. It was all just for show. Not for someone else, for me. Fake so that I can live. So that I can justify every bad decision I have … More Round and Round

Ripped In Half

A nagging deep in the back of your mind. A force, begging you to just look. Really fast before he comes back in the room. Just look… No reason behind it. No logic. You realize how damaged a person is when you try to love them. Labels, jealousy, insecurities. These are all negative qualities. Qualities … More Ripped In Half

Insecure, Damaged and Happy

I’m insecure. I can pretend like I’m not, but when it all boils down to it, I am insecure. in·se·cure ˌinsəˈkyo͝or/ adjective 1. (of a person) not confident or assured; uncertain and anxious. synonyms: unconfident, uncertain, unsure, doubtful, hesitant, self-conscious, unassertive, diffident, unforthcoming, shy, timid, retiring, timorous, inhibited, introverted Sounds terrible… On the outside, I … More Insecure, Damaged and Happy

Controlling Asshole

There are moments where you can literally feel the real you trying to bust through your outer layer. That layer that is what everyone sees. The layer that used to be so outgoing, carefree and fun. The outside that now shows a face that seems unhappy. A face afraid to smile or laugh because it … More Controlling Asshole

Live Grenade

When you know you just know. When it’s right, you’ll feel it. Everything will just fall into place. I’ve gone all this time believing that. I really believe that things would just feel right. when it was really right. What if you’re always wrong though? What if you’re entire past was composed of choosing wrong? … More Live Grenade